2025-03-10
Last week, I feel hopeless and now am I. Next week will be more hopeless than ever. Scrolling down the calendar in my little brick it fills me with dread and more hopelessness.
I hate living here. It's so unfair, so cruel, so stupid. Whiny little beings who suck money off for their expenses, it's always MONEY! A degree for them is a piece of paper to live off their wall, rent free and being useless. Stupidity has engrained into education, a mini society who respect the bully and the smarts than anything else. Now to consume "western culture" has deemed me a "traitor" and it probably will sat with me for lives.
Morning in my sheets I woke up to my dad sitting next to my bed. The man said something that haunted my dreams ever since, "I will be doomed soon, like gramps", the greyed hair figure said to me. Apparently the man has layoff all of his employees, who worked with him for the last 8 years or so due to a fat commie grouping all journalists into slaves.
Trust me, I want sympathy for him but somethings stopping me. The thing keeps a straight face and laughs like it's nothing and blamed it all on me. All my life I don't understand what I was, I asked, I wrecked. Family whispering to my ear meaningless words, tell me what to do with the poor sod.
I don't know. Why all of my responsibility is to get the figure that should help me back. Am I cruel? Why do people judge? They know no jackshit here. What is your rights to judge? If I go to a uni, that would be the end of me. If I got to Yale, Harvard, MIT, fuck sake's any "foreign" universities; That would be my escape. The world is cruel and petty.
I AM SMALL! I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERYTHING! I "BEG" THEM TO DO STUFF FOR ME! I AM NOT DEPRESSED! I AM FAIR IN ANY SITUATION!
Oh you people, please shut up. I BEG YOU!
All these Confucius methods is to blame. WHY do I have to respect my parents? But I am not being selfish here. They suffered a lot so let's be stupid, all together. Like that one Beatles song? Or that Paramore classic, Fake Happy? Do I have to sacrifice my entire youth for those old farts? No. Do I have to code, or learn English and get a score of 9.0 in IELTS? Bring them toothpicks with 2 hands raised up? Wow, "kindness"!
WHY do I have to respect woman when they HAVE to stay in the kitchen and basically a mute robot, a sex machine, reduced to rape jokes and a inverted penis, only when in woman's day they could "enjoy" themselves?
On Facebook, the government brainwash little kids into so-called "think tanks" and the "sprout" of the country. How bright the streets of Hanoi is, how "vibrant" it is... Illusion to sell the hopelesses into a drug they can't out of, how the GDP is spiking up, above european countries!
Under pressure. Right, Trump?
Yet I feel like I've mistaken something.
Maybe it's just me.